“It’s never been true, not anywhere at any time, that the value of a soul, of a human spirit, is dependent on a number or a scale. We are unrepeatable beings of light and space and water who need these physical vehicles to get around. When we start defining ourselves by that which can be measured or weighed, something deep within us rebels.
We don’t want to EAT hot fudge sundaes as much as we want our lives to BE hot fudge sundaes. We want to come home to ourselves.” -Geneen Roth
Yes, my friend, you ARE the hot fudge sundae. Eat yourself up and allow your body to be home.
The reality I, and I believe many of us grew up in, taught me that my body was special, but that loving it was impossible. I observed and believed that I could potentially be beautiful, sexy, desirable, attractive, etc. if I fit a certain mold or mirrored a handful of models. From age 13 on, I exercised for hours a day, restricted then binged on food, and through this repetitive cycle, created a deep sense of self-loathing and disconnect with my own body. I may have looked fit and healthy, but my actions rose from a place of fear of and resentment towards myself, rather than a place of gratitude and love for what my body was giving me. I don’t think I’m alone in my experience of disconnecting and conforming under the bombarding images and expectations that have been showered on me since I was very young. What about you?
Made Whole is built upon the intent for you to initiate a personal union of your body, mind, spirit and will into one whole- your Self. In Sanskrit, the root definition of yoga is “to unite”; isn’t that beautiful? The physical practice of yoga invites a subtle and strong unity to grow within you, connecting your breath (spirit) with movement (body), and practicing a calm and trusting mind and heart while doing so.
My aim with the vinyasa designed, recorded and shared here are to help you build heat and power in your body, which has the potential to change you from the inside out if you will show up and flow. I invite you to step into your body and connect with yourself through 30 minutes of movement every day. Whether that’s here through these yoga videos, at the gym or on a walk through your neighborhood, your choice to move with and be in your body can draw from a well of love and acceptance that runs deep and infinitely through you.
You don’t have to be flexible, strong or perfect to practice unity. You don’t have to be good at yoga to do yoga- in fact, I hope you show up and move without any intention of being perfect or beautiful as you practice! By all means, please step onto your mat with morning dragon breath, your gorgeous cellulite, a broken heart and stiff joints! In doing so, you choose to be you and to build trust and strength in your body, one movement and breathe at a time, regardless of your imperfections and weaknesses (which we all have) as they may currently stand. We’re all hot, beautiful messes my friend…and leaning into that messiness offers a compassion for ourselves, which in turn offers compassion for each other.
“Here in this body are the sacred rivers: here are the sun and moon as well as all the pilgrimage places…I have not encountered another temple as blissful as my own body.” Saraha